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i sit alone in desolution
destruction surrounds me everywhere
everywhere i look everyone is gone
so i sit here alone with noone to hold me
to touch me
i'm surrounded yet there's noone there

the dead speak to me
their lonely whispers bring no warmth at all
only add to my destruction
i want to die but my love for something keeps me here; watching
waiting
hoping that i fulfill some unseen destiny

bring me warmth, bring me life - fill the empty void in my heart
with something meaningful - something to fill me with hope
you're gone - you're waiting, were you ever even there?
I must imagine you - i've never known love so far

so leave me be

i watch you hold her hand - your happiness seems so real
the pain that I feel - my hopes drain away
like the many dreams that once filled me
and gave my life meaning
never to be realized again

i cannot leave yet - i must leave my mark on the world
something - anything - proof that i really existed here
proof that i did not waste my life - or that i made
a mockery of god's gift to me
once i finish that goal
i can finally be free

bring me warmth, bring me life - fill the empty void in my heart
with something meaningful - something to fill me with hope
you're gone - you're waiting, were you ever even there?
I must imagine you - i've never known love so far

don't let my death be in vain

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